I think I may have said something like this before (especially since the web address to this post is something-new-2) but I think I’m ready to restructure this site and make it what I want to be. Something with a completely custom design and that reflects me completely. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about getting a new domain to do certain things on but now that I think about it I really don’t need a new one. There’s no reason I can’t just turn this into what I want. Especially since it’s been pretty dormant here lately. So I have to get a few things done and then I will get started. I’m excited!
Today has been stressful. There’s so much going on, I don’t know what to do with it all. I went to a seminar for StoresOnline.com that was supposed to teach you a bit about selling online, while they tried to get you to buy their product. Well, it taught me nothing. But it opened my eyes up a little bit to what competitors are doing. I got myself a little free trial and I hate it so much. It’s so confusing and poorly done. I’m happy I didn’t just pay $200 for it. But they do have a good idea to work off of. I really should be more active in looking at what my competitors are offering and trying to top them. The internet has changed and simply giving your clients freedom isn’t going to cut it anymore. Grandmas are now online with their blogs and quilting businesses and I shouldn’t expect them to know how to navigate cPanel.
I also got roped into signing up with Avon for some reason. It’s a long drawn out story, but I assume I’ll be quitting that very soon, too. I’ve never done anything like Avon, Tupperware, etc because I’m not a real people person. And especially not Avon because I don’t like make-up. But I will give it a try.
So I have my new website design that’s coming along incredibly slow (partially because I was out for a while with the surgery and all) and the new content and services I will be offering, then I have this Avon thing going, and now I’m looking to see how much more I can offer through E-Starr. I definitely need to be more active marketing but I realize that isn’t the only place I need to try harder. So I’m brainstorming, I want to offer a completely reliable and flexible service and while I’ve been striving to do that for so long, I’ve really begun to notice that I’m hardly scratching the surface. I’m looking forward to the new changes!
This past weekend I took the boys camping for the first time. It wasn’t a complete disaster, but had I planned to go even just a day earlier I would have been much better prepared. I wasn’t going to go, but one of my friends asked me to take her son so I made it happen. I ended up taking 2 friend’s kids and got the easy end of that deal. I also talked my mom into going and somehow she ended up getting all the crap while I stayed up playing WSOP poker with some of the other adults. They taught me how to play and I caught on pretty quick. I even won quite a few hands. As with other games of skill, I started out clueless and ended up looking like a pro. They started to ask me if I was hustling them. Ha. Too bad there wasn’t actually money involved.
I had a lot of fun, so I wanted to recommend that anyone who goes camping brings along a deck of cards, too.
Well, I ‘m up and around. Nearly 2 weeks after my surgery and it seems like I might be able to sit at a desk and get some work done. I’ve pulled my computer into my bedroom and stolen my son’s computer desk (which his computer was no longer using) and got through about 8 helpdesk tickets tonight. I should be sleeping, but I felt I needed to get those out of the way first.
About the only pain I think I have left (with 800mg ibuprofen in my system at all times) is probably the knots where the stitches end. They hurt pretty bad. But as long as I leave on pajama pants and really good, low cut underwear, I don’t really have any trouble from that 10 inch cut on my belly. But I have noticed that the tumor was definitely taking up space because my stomach is much more flat than it used to be. Kinda bothers me. I’m afraid I may have to invest in a tummy tuck some time in the near future if it doesn’t bounce back on its own.
This has most definitely been the worst experience of my life. I’ve gone through harder (childbirth) but there was no reward whatsoever for this one. I didn’t get a beautiful baby.. I don’t get money.. as a matter of fact.. what I got was about $7000 more debt. Which is also hard to deal with. And on Wednesday I got a call from the doctor’s office telling me they want to biopsy my cervix now. It’s a wonder I haven’t completely lost my mind yet. I know if it weren’t for the boys, I would have. They keep me going. Not sure what to do about this, though. This is such a nightmare. And the doctor is so incredibly vague that I’m just losing my mind.
How do you cut out a part of someone’s body and then not tell them what to expect? And why haven’t I heard anything about the tumor yet? I was crying the other night and decided to go look up information on whether or not my hormones could be imbalanced due to the loss of an ovary, but it looks like no one online wants to say anything about the loss of one. It’s like a kidney, I guess. As long as you have one, or part of one, you’re good to go. I really think that I was crying because I didn’t know anything about what was happening. You can imagine how scary it is. Add that to other stresses and it’s a recipe for a breakdown. For me, anyway. I like to be informed. More than like, I need to be informed.
With each passing day life seems less bearable. It only seems to get worse and worse. And if my 20′s are this hard.. how will I make it through my 30′s? I didn’t expect my health to go so soon..